hey
well life sucks, i've lost a another best friend, thats right another one!
i feel so angry and sad, i feel stuck, i feel to sad i wanna cry but im soo angry i wanna scream.
he became so bitter, hes not the person that was my friend and i just wish i was dead no one would miss me... its true and you all know it, im hated everywhere! i miss the past when i knew who my friends were and knowing my friend's wouldn't angry if i got a boyfriend and not been feeling really mixed about someone, i love my boyfriend i really do but i just dunno what to feel, i dunno what love is cause i won't let myself completely love someone after having my heart crushed and shattered into so many pieces, i feel like i get hate vibes from sammi i dunno why, probably cause of me and alan not been really friends anymore and her taking his side....

i wanna be able to be in a relationship and say to myself i can do this, i like this person and they like me, its gunna work and have no doubts, im tired and wish i had more time to write

anyways night