Hey long time no see

hey its been ages since i updated this thing, well i got a bf named Ben most amazing person i've ever met and he means the world to me <3
that's my love life that's great

my family life not so much :( my dad makes me feel like he doesn't wanna know me at all anymore and mum makes me feel so guilty and like crap cause i avoid him, if he tells me to go away and piss off why would i wanna even be around that its stupid, my brothers are suprisely been good to me, i need people to be good to me at the moment...

my friends... well i dunno who's my friend and who's just faking it, its so hard i love my BFFL bree shes so amazing :) but my other friends im not sure anymore i mean sam is totally awesome don't get me wrong :D and zeke and jas.P are epic and rachel and all of my online friends are great its my real life friends that make my life hell... they make me feel like crap cause im homeschooled and there not, i didn't ask to be homeschooled it just happened!

my life in general is stressful, my dad as sucked all happniess out of me and im only happy arounf Ben now, not really happy at all with anyone else im just blank im not sad, not angry not anything just blank its scary and creepy :(
life was great until rumors started and then people started asking questions and yeah... it sucks shit dosn't it :'(

anyways that my life at the moment for you...